Letters from Cairo (Pt. 2): Nefertiti

Nefertiti… Have you heard of her?
I feel like everyone has except me
My God, she’s a beauty
I bought a bust of her and couldn’t be more proud
You know she kinda looks like a love child
Of Michael Jackson and the chick in that video
Do you remember the time we played it on an endless loop?
Drank ourselves silly and danced till you threw up
Ha… Weakling 🙂
Anyway, I actually adore her spiritual side
She and her husband brought a revolution of monotheism to Egypt
And they were responsible for one of the wealthiest periods in Egyptian history
Plus she was probably the only Queen with as much power as the Pharoah
I think I’m besotted by her, I’m smitten through and through
I actually think I’m ready to head back home
With dryer eyes and a braver face
Like us, like most things, this is probably a phase
Today it’s Nefertiti
Tomorrow is uncertainty
But I’m fine with that
I’m fine with this
And I’m fine with me
Yours sincerely
Scion of Nefertiti

Letters from Cairo (Pt. 1): Cleopatra

I write this to you thoroughly inebriated in Egypt
So excuse me if things sound a little cryptic
You know, I was in a slump for longer than I’d admit
I guess I got the brutal end of our split
I think I YouTubed Michael Jackson’s “do you remember” one too many times
Yep, I was inspired to come here by my break up anthem
Stupid, I know, you think everything is
But there’s also my love for Cleopatra that motivated this
I’ve always considered myself a daughter of hers in spirit
Plus “Daughter of Cleopatra” has quite a ring to it
But her story is wrapped up in so many mysteries and discrepancies
Like, yeah, she was the first Pharoah queen in over 10 centuries
And yeah she was the last Pharaoh of Egypt
But there were like 6 Cleopatras before her
Her lineage was Greek, not Egyptian
Then there’s all the political nonsense that surrounded her
It’s like the more I knew, the less I could identify with her
Hmmm… I bet that sounds awfully familiar
I could go on but you get the point
Honestly, I wish I knew the point
Maybe a way to occupy my mind with something…
Or nothing…
Either way…
It’s goodbye Cleopatra…

Fortunes

You know I thought about you the other day 

Even thought about calling you just to say hey 

But… 

We’re way past that..  

And…

I can’t blame you for wanting something more secure 

Than I don’t know or I’m not sure 

I was way too uncertain for my own good 

And you were too certain, which made you too good 

To let it all go to waste 

So it was either accept your love 

Or give the gift of your warmth away 

And it was either admire the beauty of my fracture

Or treat me like the sun and look the other way 

Now I know enough about myself to say 

Whether you left or stayed 

I would have been damned either way 

I’ve been damned, until this very day 

Albeit damned in my favorite kind of way 

Burdens of love

Nobody should ever be made to bear the burden of perfection, we’re all just human beings trying to figure all of this out,
No one deserves to be subjected to the immense pressure of being the perfect lover or the perfect friend or the perfect colleague whatever it is.
The moment we stop expecting perfection from people is when we can focus on creating a space where they can be the best they can be within the realm of their reality
Eventually we realise our lovers will err, our friends will stumble just as we do and will continue to do

Young heart

I don’t really know what love is all about

I guess I’m a tad bit too young

But give me a little time to figure this out

And I know I’ll come back strong

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As the man you deserve, as the man I want to be

So before I fuck this up completely

Give me a break to catch my breath

I swear I’ll be back, you just hold your breath

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Give this young soul some time to feel

Give this infant heart a couple more beats

Away from here

Maybe there’s a better version of this story
In another time, in a better world
Until then that possibility is imaginary
A fleeting memory, a passing thought
Holding on desperately to the strings of comets
Praying it doesn’t drift too close to the sun
The view of the galaxies only blocked by the planets
A star on the other side of a smoking gun
There’s a version of this story with all the right moves
But that’s many lightyears away, many moons

36th floor

You’re the only one who knows I’m not superman
That the cape on my back is nothing but a sham
That I’m as human as the prints on your palm
You’re the only one who knows who’s behind my mask

You’re the only one who knows I’m not superman
Yet you believe I am more than any other man
And I place that green gem on a rope around your neck
You’re my window out of this pile of mess

I’m standing on the ledge of the 36th floor
Baby sincerely tell me you believe I can fly
I’m about to take off, riding on your fate
Its superman not a bird not a plane

Come when you’re done

I’m at the pinnacle of my desires and all I want is you
Your voice as sweet as a liar’s, I want it all to be true
I want your breath on my tongue, send my mind on the run
I want your dreams as my own, maybe one day tick them done
No other stream of beauty could satisfy my tongue
My breath racing down your chest, the journey’s almost won
I’ll guide you to your destination, arrive with ecstasy
The sweat, the heat, your shivering feet, oh yes this is reality

How dare you

How dare you love me

How dare you give that hope to me

How dare you fill me with such happiness

How dare you invade my serene darkness

 

How dare you make me love you

How dare you, how dare you

How dare you make me lose myself in this imagination

That you call a life, a circus in translation

 

How dare you bring me into that nightmare of yours

That ignites the prospect of having something to lose

How dare you, how dare you do this

Because I now love you to bits

 

I dare you to leave, I dare you to make that move

Because I’ll haunt you till you come to rue

The day that you stared at me with those eyes

And told me you loved me with more fire than the devil’s demise

How we ended the war

Damn I knew it would be hard but not this hard
I knew it’ll be a fight but not this long
Its taking a lot from me, expending souls
Relaying emotions on sheets heading home
I’m starting to think this wasn’t worth the toll
This is how we ended the war in a single blow
Its easy really, defeat over damage
So all we did was let the white flag wave
And saved our strength for another night
For now, peace is more important than pride